Just Me and You, Baby: A Very Long Month

It's been a long, hard month, and as much as I wanted to write, my mind has been in bad places that just weren't meant to be written in a blog. I am feeling better about everything and somehow everything worked itself out, despite all the crap I had to go through to get here and all the tears and stress all seemed to be for nothing, which is great!

Alexis and I moved into our new apartment a week ago! I can't tell you how much I love it here! It is big and I feel so at home here! I love the feeling of walking in and knowing I am home. And it's great to not feel scared anymore, like I did at my last place, because I thought it was haunted...lol

Anyways, the last couple of weeks have been crazy busy, with packing, moving and unpacking. It has all be exhausting, not just because I haven't had much time to relax, but because Alexis has decided to change up our routine and get up in the middle of the night to hang out at midnight till 2am. It's so tiring all the time. But I have been trying not to give her a nap during the day and it seems to be working, and she isn't getting up anymore in the middle of the night.

some middle of the night fun!

Alexis has grown up so much in just one month and she makes me more proud of her every day! She can now say "All gone" and "Good girl." She has been walking for a month now, and hasn't felt the need to crawl in about 3 weeks! I love watching her walk! She hasn't started running yet, but she is starting to walk faster every day!

First time walking outside!

I love this age, probably more than I liked any other age so far! She has such a nice personality (most of the time!) and if she could talk and tell me what's exactly wrong when she cries, I would wish she'd stay 15 months old, forever! She jibber jabbers all day long, walks around the apartment, saying "Good girl!" all the time, gasps at everything she finds exciting, especially when she walks in her room and sees all her toys! It is all just so cute! She is super snuggly towards everything, she even snuggles Winnie the pooh when she sees his picture in her books! It's so funny! She likes to pretend to play on my computer and moves the mouse and looks at the computer screen as if she knows what she's doing! I love every second with her, she makes me laugh so much! She gave me a kiss today for the first time! It was the cutest thing ever!!

Halloween came and went! We moved out that day, so it turned out to be a really long day for us. Nicole and Glen came to pick us up and we went to see Matt's dad and his Mom, and just took the girls trick-or-treating to 3 houses. It was just so cold outside and they didn't understand anyways. Next year will be different!

Matt and I have been getting along a lot better, now that we aren't together. It's nice to know that we can actually talk to each other now. We still don't agree on a lot of things, but that's life. He is living at his dad's and so is the dog, so when Alexis goes to see Daddy, at least she can still see Mya, and I like that! Today he actually took her for a few hours for the first time since we moved out. I missed her while she was gone, but I went to Alisha's to spend some time with her while she was in town. I'm not sure if I will ever get used to the fact that Alexis will be without me sometimes, to go be with Daddy, but it's the life I chose for us, and I think it'll all be okay in the end. He said he was going to take her again on Tuesday for the afternoon if he can before he has to go back to work, so hopefully he will make the time to do that. I know it is important for them to have a relationship, and even if it's just a few hours here and a few hours there, for now, at least it's something! Everything will all take some getting used to though.

Well, I suppose it's almost bedtime, so here are some pics over the last month for you to enjoy!!