It's been a while. A long while, since I wrote. Alexis and I had a pretty boring summer. Nothing exciting to say the least. Poor girl didn't get to go on too many adventures. But there's always next year.
She turned 2 in July. I sometimes look at her in disbelief that she is mine and that I actually am a mother of a gorgeous, super smart 2 year old! But every day she makes me proud and I couldn't be happier!
Her birthday party turned out to be pretty crappy. Well, she had a blast, but I was so disappointed. I had invited 17 people and 7 people came and didn't stay the whole time. No kids showed up either. She had no clue either way, enjoyed her day and had fun opening presents. And in the end, it is your child's happiness that means the most, not how many people show up to their birthday party. I just felt terribly disappointed, and it almost made me realize how unimportant Alexis and I are to some people. But whatever. All we need are each other, and at least she has me! Her Daddy didn't even come, even though I made sure it was on a weekend he would be home. Some things apparently are just more important to him. (I'm sorry baby girl!)
at least she had her pool all to herself!
My camera busted back in May. It's been in the shop for repair since the beginning of June. They said I would get it back in 3 weeks time, and it has now been 3 months. I am supposed to be getting it back this week. I am just hoping that Matt will go and get it for me. It's been a long summer taking crappy pictures with my Dad's camera, and can NOT wait to get mine back and take some actually good pictures of Alexis! It's been a long summer without it =(
Alexis and I have spent a lot of our summer inside. Sad to say we have missed out on a lot of the time at the park and enjoying the sunshine. I'm not 100% sure why I allowed her to miss out so much on the summer days that are slowly (already) turning into fall. But it is what it is. I find though that spending so much time inside with her, that she is just so smart. I work with her every day with counting and spelling her name. She is so smart! She can count from 1 to 11 and has spelled her name out to me numerous times. Teaching her things brings such joy to me. I love that her brain is a sponge and she just knows so much more than I even thought she could at her age!
She talks SO much! She still talks in little sentences. Sometimes still only one or two words at a time, but it still gets the point across to me. I know that soon though she will talk in full sentences. She just started using the "and" like Toopy "and" Binoo, rather than just Toopy Binoo!
Her imagination is coming out now in full force, and makes all of her toys sleep. It's her favorite thing right now! She always tells me in a little whisper "shhh sleeping!" and puts her little finger up to her mouth! It's so adorable! She also likes to make all her stuff dance or walk down the stairs or her dollhouses. She is so much fun (always has been, but now is just a different kind of fun, and I love it!).
She is very into art! She loves coloring and drawing and painting! I just started letting her use markers in the last month, and although it it slightly dangerous, she loves them so very much! She has a thing with drawing on her arms. The first time she did it, happened to be with a permanent marker she found in the kitchen junk drawer that I had to empty because she kept getting into it. I have learned that washable markers are seriously the BEST thing ever invented. One swipe with a cloth and the marker is gone! Incredible!
My good friend Nichole got married a couple of weeks ago! The wedding was awesome! Beautiful! Fun! But as a Mother, it was a day that I will never forget just how proud I was that Alexis was my daughter, the most beautiful little flower girl I ever did see! And all my worries of her being a flower girl and not walking down the isle, diminished the second I saw her walking down the isle all by herself. All the way down the isle, wearing her flower wreath in her hair, that I thought for sure she would never allow to stay on her head, carrying her cute little basket. She didn't smile, and looked at the ground the whole time, but she made it, all the way down the isle. I was so proud of her, I wanted to cry! She did exactly what she had to, perfectly. =)
As a parent, you want your child to have everything. Whether it be everything you never had and wished you did, or everything you can give your child. It's sometimes hard as a single parent and wanting to give everything to Alexis that she deserves, and more, but somehow I always pull it off. She always has more than enough clothes to wear, always enough toys to play with and always everything that a 2 year old can dream of having. In my life, she always comes first. I always think of her before me. And I know that's the way any good parent is.
For Alexis' birthday, I wasn't able to buy her a lot of things, because at the time, I was living paycheck to paycheck, but she already had more than enough to keep her going that I didn't really see it as that big of a deal. But because I ended up being so disappointed in how her birthday turned out, I decided that Christmas is going to be big this year for her. She is at such a great age (and I'm sure that I will say the same thing next year and the year after that and so on), but because I got some extra money on my baby bonus (FINALLY SINGLE as of July!!!!!), I decided that I was going to start all my Christmas shopping early.
For Christmas I am going to change my baby girl's room into Princesses! I have a toddler bed, curtains, bedding (coming soon), a vanity (a really small one!), a kitchen, a toy box, a lamp, and some wall decorations. I am looking for a rug right now, and thinking by Christmas I will be able to find one! I found in the Wish Book a Princess art desk that I am still debating on, and a Princess Book shelf. I'm just hoping that my bank account wont suffer if I decide to buy them!
As a kid, I never had a themed room. I'm not sure if that's why I want to do this for her, or if it's just because I feel like it. The stupid thing about it, is that she has no idea what Princesses are, as she has no interest in watching anything but Treehouse, Toopy and Binoo, Max and Ruby and Winnie the Pooh. But it's too late to go back on it now, and she will like it either way, I know she will!
It's hard to think about my baby not sleeping in a crib at Christmas time, but she will be 2 and a half by then, and I think it might be a good age to transition her to a big girl bed. I'm hoping anyways, because there will be no going back when I flip her room to her big girl room!
It's scary how fast the time just flies. It feels like just yesterday she was a little baby, and now she is talking to me and telling me what she wants and what she doesn't want. Just growing up, so independent, her own little person, which such a nice personality. She says Please and Thank you, and excuse me. Always puts her garbage in the garbage can, and well, I wish she liked to clean up her messes, but that is something I have to work on a little more. She is shy and scared of just about everything, but I don't mind that she is hesitant on doing new things. I just hope that it stays with her, to always think before she leaps.
I wish she'd stay this little forever. At her age, there are no worries in life, no heartache or pain. No real world events to know about, nothing scary. All she knows right now, is life with me, and the 1 day every other week with her Daddy. Oh, to be a kid again! I'm glad she has given me the life I always needed and wanted, even though in reality, it's still filled with worries, and heartache and pain, and everything scary.
But God, do I ever love her!
Xoxo
